I hate myself for being this way

Lately (or pretty much most of the time), I've been so cranky, annoying, stubborn, and wanting to cause arguments for no good reason. I'll say one thing, and he'll answer one thing, and I'll say another that is irrelavant, and I'll keep going till something, and then yeah.. I don't know what has been going on with me lately. Or I kind of do, but then I don't think it's bothering me that much or maybe that's what I think. A few days ago, I was at my sister's work (only 'cause a certain someone forgot to charge his phone, kept me waiting all day and did not wake up till later in the afternoon.. anyways..) and for some reason we talked about the past.. past rivalries of the Nguyen Family. I didn't realise till then how much drama had happened back in elementary/high school.. so much that you'd think it would only happen in movies. Literally. It was pretty overwhelming when I was talking to her. And obviously, sensitive me, I started to tear up, and I ended up bawling my eyes out. I slipped out a few things (in the most subtle way) that I've never told anyone, EVER. Not even during Encounter.. or so I think.. I can't quite remember, but even if I did spill it out, I probably didn't go into detail. But yeah.. it was definately an emotional 2 hours I had.. but like every emotional rush I've had, I brushed everything off and started off fresh. I think recently I've just been so out of place that sometimes I don't even know why I act a certain way.. And again, I think I'm drifting subjects.. anyways, it's late, I should sleep, but I know I won't be able to. I just hope tomorrow (later today) will be a better day. sigh.. Good Night, world.