it doesn't make sense

I'm trying so hard to put the pieces together, but it just won't fit. Why.. why after three months do I realise? Why is it only hitting me now? This feeling came so abruptly, and is leaving me speechless. I know it's too late to go back, and I'm not going to do anything about it. "The past is the past." I just hate how this past week, all I've been thinking about is you. It started from a dream, that led to another dream, and it just keeps repeating.. And it doesn't help when I bump into your friends either. For some reason, I've seen them quite a few times this week. Why does everything/everyone that surrounds me reminds me of you. It kind of hurts for some reason.. I wish I knew why. It surprises me that I feel this way towards you.. after how long? Ugh it's kiiiillling me inside. I wish I could tell you all this, but it's definately not a good time. In one of your past notes you said, "I think things are right, but just not at this time." It's never going to be the right time for us, will it? What do I do to get you out of my mind? I want this feeling I feel to vanish. It's just too much for me to handle. :(