"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together." -Marilyn Monroe

"What lies behind us and what lies ahead of us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."

It was impossible to not have you in my life for some reason. I did whatever I could to get you back into my life. I left the past behind, and forgot what you had done to make me feel what I had felt. I always tried in our friendship. And you even knew it. You left who knows how many times, and always came back at the most odd times. I still accepted you back. Until that time you completely left.. I tried so damn hard; the hardest I've ever for anyone. I thought it would be worth it. I gave up. And you unexpectedly came back, again. What did I do? With no further questions, I let you back into my life. I don't know why, but I did. You've been here for awhile now, but sometimes it feels as if you were still gone. It's not the same anymore, and it'll never be the same. It's kind of sad to just let those years go by like leaves falling during autumn. Life's never perfect. And what have I learnt in these past years? Is to know when enough is enough. I'm not going to go out of my way to make things work after putting so much effort already. I'm moving on, and it is not essential to have you in my life. So if you were to leave again, I wouldn't be surprised, and I won't pull you back. My life is great the way it is. Maybe not exactly where I wanted it to be, but close enough.

It was a great start, and it's going to be a great end.

I love my two families. My blood ones, and the ones that have been with me through thick & thin. You guys know who you all are! I just felt like saying.. THANK YOU. I love you guys sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!

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:)

siighh, so cute.. TOO cute!

let it be

“There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, and who always will. So don’t worry about the people in your past, there’s a reason why they didn’t make it into your future.”

11:11 - "Back to start!"

I kept hoping, and wishing that one day, everything would actually be okay. And eventually, everything became okay. These past few weeks have been pretty rough, but I still kept a smile on my face everyday. I know I shouldn't have kept everything bottled up inside of me, but it just felt right, you know? I'm not usually someone who'll go to my friends and tell them my problems. I like to keep things to myself unless I was asked about it. So instead of expressing my feelings, showing others how I really felt, I created a mask. A mask to avoid my problems so that I didn't have to face it. I surrounded myself with my friends because I knew that they'd brighten up my day without them even knowing. Soon enough I had to face reality. And it slapped me right on the face. There was a moment that I felt like everything was over. Nothing will ever be okay. I was at the lowest point of being low. But God seemed to like to play around with me. He gave me a chance to redeem myself. And now, I'm a fully renewed person. "Back to start!" Things have brightened up, and I'm not just saying this to put you guys at ease. I'm saying this because it's true. I am better. 'Cause I decided to face everything that was placed infront of me AND I had my friends. When I'm with you guys, I feel as if nothing could ever go wrong. And I thank you guys for always being there for me, checking up on me, and making sure that I'm alright. And don't worry, I am alright. For reals. You guys have no idea how much I love you all. I can honestly say that I have the bestest friends, ever!

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FML

I fucking hate my life right now. I just hate it. I can't take it anymore. I'm so sick and tired. But what can I do? NOTHING. I just got to put a smile on my face, and pretend that everything is okay in hopes that one day, everything will actually be okay. Yay, life is just great..