“For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.”

So, I was reading through my diary for some odd reason. I found a xanga account, and the password.
(Xanga account shall not be disclosed due to privacy concerns)
I logged on. WOW. Feels so weird since no one uses that anymore 'cause the new xanga is this. haha.
But just to give you the gist of it..
Purpose: Five best friends blogging about our days.
Goal: To keep in touch.

Name: R, A, T, A, S

Interests: Our real names are Renée, Angelina, Tara, Anselma, and Sydney, but Xanga won't let us fit all of that in the name section. Honestly! What if someone's name is really long, and it isn't able to fit into that little space that we're given?

Anyways, here's an entry that was pretty interesting. Foreshadowing?

Sunday, June 11, 2006
i don't want to be the poo poo of all poo poos but, do you guys feel as if things are going to change drastically?

just a pondering.

-anselma.

Comments:
Change drastically between us, or in our relationships with other people? -Ange.

if something does change..we'll always have this to tell us if things have [changed] right?
and yeah, what do you mean by change haha
-tara

i don't know. maybe one, maybe something completely different, maybe both.
-anselma

WEIRD. I don't think we saw this one coming. Anselma was able to predict the future pretty well. Things did change.

Life's pretty good

This semester is almost ending! Just got to finish two major projects, finals, an accounting assignment, and then I'm free!!!

Working out & eating healthy w/ Leann & Eka is pretty satisfying. Feels goooooood.

Just chillin' and hanging out with friends is always the best. <3

After months of not seeing my BF (Cady, partner in crime, soulmate, sister), we finally reunite! Love it!

I miss you girliesx8! :(

Work is ehh now.. I need to go job hunting.

BEYONCE CONCERT w/ my lover, Eka!!!

Sometimes things don't work out the way you want it to. That's life. Just got to accept it, and move on.

I must say..

LIFE'S PRETTY GOOD.
:)

My Soldier

Amandy and I love this!
:)

"Tupper or Something Like That"

Yesterday, at 6pm, I headed over to Eka's house so we could go watch her high school play. She was able to get her dad's van out (score!), so there our adventure began.. We arrived at Tupper, and for some reason it felt so weird being at a public school. haha. I know, I'm weird. Got our tickets, seats, and eventually, Pamela (Eka's friend) came. I felt kind of out of place, but as Eka said, "At least you saw two people you knew!" haha true that! The play was hilarious! I loved it. Especially the jokes.. teehee.

"What do you call an east indian man who works at the pub?"
"Bartinder!"

"Are you from the Soviet Union?"
"No.. why?"
"Because it sounds like you're RUSH-ING (RUSSIAN)"

Maybe it doesn't sound that funny, or funny at all BUT it was unbelievably funny when we heard it. haha. You just had to be there!

Afterwards, chilled a bit at the school and headed to Sui Sha Ya for some all-you-can-eat sushi! Yumyum. Then my lovely grandma, Eka drove me home. (Thank you for the rides, and bringing me to the play! Love you! <3)

P.S. It's in the palm of your hands. Now or never.

Fresh start

A friend (ST) of mine once said, "Stop looking behind you, stop looking ahead of you. You're gonna miss what just passed you."

I'll let go of the past if we could just go back to how it use to be.
We're ready, are you?

EDIT//
I'm tired. I'm done.

"Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla.."

She is AMAAAAAAAZING.

rEaLIzationS

"All our fights just make our friendship stronger."
I once believed this wholeheartedly.
Without no doubt.
Things change/changed/are changing - I've learnt/am learning to except it.
But I've got one question for you: Honestly, did our friendship ever mean anything to you? Or was I just one of those people you called, "best friend."

Day 2 and still counting..

YEEEEEEEE Leann, Erika and I have made a PERMANENT plan..
We'll be hitting the gym every Tuesdays at 5pm, and every Fridays (w/ only Lea since Eka has school) at 12pm.
We're so freaking excited!!!!!! hahaha
I know, we're such losers.
And this blog is pointless for you readers..
ANYWAYS,
I should be heading to bed now.
It's freaking 12:30. ahhh passed my bed time!
Nighty night.
:)

P.S. ????????????

"AWWKWAARDD!"

Enough said.

"I'm going to have a good night sleep tonight." - Eka

Afterschool, Leann and I decided to begin one of our Lenten promises, which was WORKING OUT! We bussed from Richmond to Burnaby! Oh yes, we are definately working out troopers. hahaha. Well, as of now.. So we arrived at Bonsor, looked quite clueless, we sat on the bench waiting for Erika. We got all excited, and hyped once we finally paid for our drop-in. $3.90 wasn't bad at all! Started with the bicycles, then the treadmill, then so on.. We sure worked our legs/thighs today! Relaxed for a bit, and did some sit-ups, push-ups, and of course, stretched liked crazy! Aww, I didn't realise how much I missed running, being fit, going to track meets, practicing in the hall ways when it was raining, our 4x100 relay team, QUADROOP-L'S, cheering, sweating our ass off, long jump, raking them sand, running back-and-forth while giving someone a piggyback ride.. y'know, missing something that you really enjoyed doing (aka hobby). I know, sounds stupid.. I LOVED RUNNING! hahaha. I still do, sometimes. BUT due to Choir back in high school, I wasn't allowed to join track. It was either singing or running. But now that singing (I miss choir!) is out of the picture, I'm back to running! Actually, I'll be back to that when the weather clears up. For now.. it's working out at the gym baby! And possibly _ _ _ _ _ _ (Sorry, it's a secret!) with them girls. teeheehee. Anyways, today was a great success! So.. if you ever want to work out.. you can find us at Bonsor every Tuesdays, and Fridays! And maybe.. just MAYBE you'll find us there on other random days. teehee. So back to my day.. after working out Erika and I decided to do something horrible.. we got ourselves bubble tea! Thanks my dear. My treat next time. ;) It was good though. We had a lot of deep talks, and what not. I can so imagine us doing this when we're old! Except.. we'll be drinking tea 'cause bubble tea would be too much for us to handle. haha. And now..

"I'm going to have a good night sleep tonight."

P.S. Jason Mesnick, the Bachelor is WOW. Incredibly unbelievable. I'm so choked. I think Ivee, Christina, and James agree, too! But besides that fustration, I'm SOO excited for The Bachelorette because of JILL! ahhhhhhh MAY 18TH, MAY 18TH!
:)

REALITY CHECK

1 Honestly, I was trying to avoid you as much as possible that night. I know that I should've not done that 'cause that just meant that I still cared. Whatever, you already know I feel, but you just don't give a damn. I'm such a fool, eh? I'm still holding onto our friendship, hoping that you'll come back, and everything will go back to how things were.. Sigh, I've got to be kidding myself. I did the last thing that I could possibly do to make things work, but no response. I should've taken that as a sign. But it's never too late to stop trying..
Thank you for everything. I sincerely hope the best for you.

2 You give me butterflies? I like talking to you, and I like our random conversations. :) AND.. I think I've got a tiny crush on you.. :$ :$ :$

3 I just don't get it. Why am I trying to pull you back when I pushed you away? I've done this so many times already. I seriously don't understand what I'm trying to do. I kind of regret the choices that I've made, and I wish I could go back to how it was between us.. Let's just say, I miss you?

4 FUCK. School sucks! Where has my determination and motivation gone? I was having such a great start this semester, and BAM! I'm getting into the bad habit, again.. It's killing me! I MUST FOCUS. I must, I must, I MUST!

5 Talked to a co-worker just recently, and we've decided that we kind of want to quit ALDO. hmmm.. I LOVE the co-workers, but I kind of hate the job now. Hollister? Costa Blanca? Or should I not do retail?

6 I'm satisfied with my life right now. No drama, AND no drama! But I've got to fix a few bad habits, and things will get better. :)

7 For the past week I've been sleeping before 12am on weekdays. yeeeeee

8 I love my besties (you guys know who you are). They keep me sane! Who said a person can't have more than one best friend? I love you girls + boys times infinity and beyond! <3

9 I'm extremely UNFIT. It may not look like it, but trust me.. I AM. Therefore, I'm thinking of taking JAZZ lessons at Harbour, again! I remember the time I went with Mel and it was absolutely draining, but fun! Anyone up for it? 'Cause I kind of don't want to take it alone.. haha. Or.. you guys, let's finally take hip-hop lessons! I'm ready whenever you guys are. ;) Or I'll just stick with the gym every Tuesday w/ Leann.

10 MEXICO 2010!!!!!! Tickets have been bought.. $500 baby! We so ballin' HAHAHA, I wish! Now we need to figure out our hotel.. Cancun Palace? *crosses fingers* I can't wait for Wet'nWild! Yiiiikeeesss, I'm so excited!!!

11 I gave up chocolate for Lent. I'm finally going to church every Sunday. :)

12 It's freaking 230am.. and I'm super duper tired! So.. I must head to bed, and catch my zZz's. NIGHTY NIGHT!