REALITY CHECK

1 Honestly, I was trying to avoid you as much as possible that night. I know that I should've not done that 'cause that just meant that I still cared. Whatever, you already know I feel, but you just don't give a damn. I'm such a fool, eh? I'm still holding onto our friendship, hoping that you'll come back, and everything will go back to how things were.. Sigh, I've got to be kidding myself. I did the last thing that I could possibly do to make things work, but no response. I should've taken that as a sign. But it's never too late to stop trying..
Thank you for everything. I sincerely hope the best for you.

2 You give me butterflies? I like talking to you, and I like our random conversations. :) AND.. I think I've got a tiny crush on you.. :$ :$ :$

3 I just don't get it. Why am I trying to pull you back when I pushed you away? I've done this so many times already. I seriously don't understand what I'm trying to do. I kind of regret the choices that I've made, and I wish I could go back to how it was between us.. Let's just say, I miss you?

4 FUCK. School sucks! Where has my determination and motivation gone? I was having such a great start this semester, and BAM! I'm getting into the bad habit, again.. It's killing me! I MUST FOCUS. I must, I must, I MUST!

5 Talked to a co-worker just recently, and we've decided that we kind of want to quit ALDO. hmmm.. I LOVE the co-workers, but I kind of hate the job now. Hollister? Costa Blanca? Or should I not do retail?

6 I'm satisfied with my life right now. No drama, AND no drama! But I've got to fix a few bad habits, and things will get better. :)

7 For the past week I've been sleeping before 12am on weekdays. yeeeeee

8 I love my besties (you guys know who you are). They keep me sane! Who said a person can't have more than one best friend? I love you girls + boys times infinity and beyond! <3

9 I'm extremely UNFIT. It may not look like it, but trust me.. I AM. Therefore, I'm thinking of taking JAZZ lessons at Harbour, again! I remember the time I went with Mel and it was absolutely draining, but fun! Anyone up for it? 'Cause I kind of don't want to take it alone.. haha. Or.. you guys, let's finally take hip-hop lessons! I'm ready whenever you guys are. ;) Or I'll just stick with the gym every Tuesday w/ Leann.

10 MEXICO 2010!!!!!! Tickets have been bought.. $500 baby! We so ballin' HAHAHA, I wish! Now we need to figure out our hotel.. Cancun Palace? *crosses fingers* I can't wait for Wet'nWild! Yiiiikeeesss, I'm so excited!!!

11 I gave up chocolate for Lent. I'm finally going to church every Sunday. :)

12 It's freaking 230am.. and I'm super duper tired! So.. I must head to bed, and catch my zZz's. NIGHTY NIGHT!