done deal

I need you out of my life NOW. Too much happened when I was with you. I didn't realise how different, and better things were when you left. And now that you're trying to come back into my life, things aren't going so well. I can't deal with this anymore. I can't deal with you anymore. I need to end this, and I don't want to see you for a while. So please.. Just let me be.

"fall for your type"

Oh mah gawsh.
As soon as I saw that you messaged me..
my heart literally skipped a beat.
I haven't heard from you in a while, and to hear from you now? UGH.
When I finally accepted the fact that you're still livin' the life, and I can't wait for you to "change" you decide to come back?
I want to move on.
But.. why can't I?
Why do I ALWAYS fall for your type.

"No more games, I'm tired of your silly lies"

I just had another LOL moment.. siiighhhh. Life likes to play games with me. SERIOUSLY. I didn't think life could be this odd, and funny? I should be avoiding it, but I'm playing along.. it's honestly pretty entertaining. (for those who know what I'm talking about haha)

Anyway.. I absolutely cannot wait till summer actually begins! When the weather brightens up, and when I get to see everyone more often. :) Ahhhh hurry up, June!

As for a second job.. hmmm I'm getting a lot of hours at Aldo now, but I'm getting tired of working there. I need some change. I need to get out of town for a few days. SO.. I'm going to save up, and maybe fly somewhere for the weekend.

lalalala it's 2am.. and I should be sleeping. This is probably the latest I've been awake till this week. YIKES. Eka! Come back, and make me sleep early, too. :( hahaha

So yeah, this entry was pointless for you readers..

GOOD NIGHT VANCOUVER!

"...and breaks your heart like a mooothaaafuckaaahh" - IB

Talking to you for about three months straight felt perfect till the day we stopped talking.. I hate it. When I thought that maybe this could be it turned out to be it's never going to be it. Ugh. I don't know if I should regret those months, or be happy that it was good while it lasted? But whatever, I'm going to finally move on.. I'm not going to think about you, or message you, or even acknowledge you.. it just kiiiillss me. I know I can do this.. I can, I can, I can..

Over, and over again..

Ugh. I wish I could just move on.. I hate that I'm still holding on to that last strand of hope. FML. I need to seriously get out of this. It sucks. Talking to you from morning till night everyday for three months was going pretty well.. till it just stopped. Why? And so, I tell myself that it wasn't worth it, and that I should finally move on.. I was doing pretty well until you decided to give a surprise visit, and message me out of no where. Ugh. I want to move on, I need to move on. What am I suppose to do?

SUMMER 2010 TO-DO LIST

CAMP 2010 with the rowdy fam
Whistler - Gonzales' birthday!
Jenny's Bday Camping Trip
Birthdays!!!!!
New/second job
Road Trip to Calgary
SCG hangouts
SC hangouts
Tanning/beach
Karaoke (we MUST go, again!)
Picnics
Sightseeing
Roadtrip to the states
Grouse Grind
The Trail
Watermania
Chillin' w/ the "Friday" crew
Late night walks
Game nights
Clubbing/Bars
Visit Eka in Slurrey
Sleepovers
Girls night in/out
Movie Marathon
Skating
Duedue's Performance
Granville Island with the SCGs
More late night "missions"
Ceilis ;)